I use to have a daily schedule. I’d get up in the morning at 4:30 am and get the hubby off to work. Then reset the clock to 6:30 am, which usually gave me 40 minutes more to sleep after the hubby was done and gone. At 6:30 am I would get up, sign on to the internet, and get my youngest son up for school. I’d come back to the computer and sit there, read emails, take surveys, hunt for freebies, do my gather, work my eBay store, get packages ready to ship, and at 8 am I would start the laundry, load the dishwasher, and come back to the computer, read some more, write some, eBay some more, then go do some other housework before I came back to the computer. I left the computer on all day, and only signed off when someone called, because I have dial-up, lol. Anyway, you can see what I used to do when I didn’t get called into work.
However, now I have a whole other schedule I keep. Still up at 4:30 and 6:30 am, but if I get to sign on to the internet it’s only for about 20 minutes at most. Then I have to cook breakfast for my mother in-law, and then start my normal house work, without the computer to come back to. I run all day doing whatever she needs done, plus housework, doctor’s appts, and all that jazz. If I’m lucky, I get to get online at 9:30 pm, and then I’m up till 1 or 2 am getting caught up, not really, but trying.
Some days I feel like this is worse than having a 2 year old again. Some days I want to just run away. Some days, I just want to lie in bed and cry all day. But….I don’t. I get up and get to it, all day, everyday, unless I get called into work and can go.
Guess I just needed to vent, been a rough week, I was sick and am finally trying to get back to my unusual routine. Boy, do I miss my old routine. Being a full time caregiver is a lot harder than I thought I would be. She can do a lot for herself, but she sure can put a damper on my day with all the, I needs…..but better here than somewhere where she’d just give up, and better than if she was by herself. I know most of my anxiety this weekend is due to not being able to take a break this week, being sick all week, and the impending bad weather we are expecting anytime. Oh well, onto dinner, should be out of the oven in 15 minutes.
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I used to do the "care-giving" of my beloved mother-in-law, as well. She was a lady of grace and tutored me with life lessons.
Tough days/nights? You bet! Especially when we moved to Florida and the decision was to "temporarily" give her a place to stay at a facility in N E Ohio. We finally were able to move her to a facility just down the road from our first apartment here.
My hubby, Chuckles, visited her most every day. Right after he took me to work and dropped our youngest, Breanne, at high school every day.
She blossomed down here. A "grit", she was at home again. But it was still tough for her and the family, as well. Martha has gone home to our creator. Not many days do not go by that I remember the good things. You will, too~
Cry...it's good for the spirit...for even Mother Nature's tears of rain makes the flowers grow and blossom.
Much love, light, and blessings~Mama T
I love her dearly, and I'm glad she's with us.
Thanks again for the words of encouragement. That reassures me in so many ways. Thanks!