it's the little moments

i enjoy the quiet times, this morning i stopped and looked at my world, i layed in bed with my beautiful wife and we watched our son crawl across us, and squirm and babble. i actually have a wonderful life even though sometimes i seem hell bent to destroy it. this year will scream to me at my accomplishments and my dramas. it has been the best year of my life, i can say that will all confidence. my work has truly progress not just in volume, but in quality. all it takes is a look back at where i was a year ago to see that this statement is the truth. i know the progression, because i faught for it, but i'm still amazed at where i've gone and where i'm going. There is nothing about my work this year that i can be unhappy with. i have taken the lies and made them true. there are so many things this year that i will never forget, so many faces, so many people i have fallen in love with. so many strangers that have become the most important people to me. i am a lucky man to have all of these people coming into my life. a normal person has only a few people who truly make differences in thier lives throught the entire time here. i have people that just drop from nowhere and become icons immediately. the examples are obvious, but stand out so strong. all you have to do is look back at the repeating faces in my work to make this statement ring true. it's hard to believe that someone like Jenna has only been in my life for just this year, i can't imagine doing what i do, or even spending a day without talking to her at this point. thank you for this year beth, in the studio and beyond it was yours throughout. Sara, and Jess and Alana, Brandy and Alan are all new people in actuality, but my life seems complete with each of them and they are essential to me. funny. Sara, you are of course a standout recently for your obvious dedication to the cause, in and out of work. you rule. Holly found her place so much closer to my heart this year also, although she's now further away, she will always be part of the empire. of course there have been mistepps, even with the people i have chosen to trust, but overall, the people i have brought close have exceedingly earned their place and my love. i am so damn lucky. my family has found a closer place to me in my world. my baby sister became a minister and soon she will become a mother and make me an uncle. my baby brother found a beautiful wife to share his world with and continues to prosper and succeed. my parents, well all i have to say is "who are these people?". since the baby they have become the all american grandparents, and they make me smile everytime i see them. Heather, my wife. god what we have been through this year, what i have put you through. i am amazed everyday that you are still here. i love you so much, and i only want to deserve the love you give me everyday. of course this year saw the arrival of my son, Indy. everyday with you is a new milestone and a new experience. you were my world from the moment i met you, you are a gift and my greatest treasure. i will try my best to show you that for the rest of my life. i look at my life right now today, i look at it and i smile because there is nothing else i can do. i am so proud of my world, i am so thrilled to have all that i do. i realize that my progress and my life is a slow moving wave, it hasn't crested just yet, my best days are still coming, but for today i know i can smile and surf.