just a blog

 It makes me...I don't know, sad? a bit angry? to realize that I have to tell my

partner to read my blogs. I could sometimes tell him stuff, but sometimes it's

just easier to write it. I think what bugs me is that we have some of the same

friends, and I'll see his comments on their blogs that he reads, yet not mine...

 I don't even feel acknowledged half the time. What good does it do to tell

someone else that you're a "couple", and have them ignore it? Or have them be

defended instead?

 I had originally accepted his proposal this past summer, but recently changed my

mind because I felt he had very little respect for my feelings, or just me

period. I told him that if we're still together in a few years, then maybe; but

not anytime soon. I'd hoped that our counseling sesions would've helped, but

they didn't. I think he needs to take care of his issues with a counselor by

himself, before he seeks a wife. At least, before he can get a positive answer

from me.

 So this is my wonderful holiday news. I wish you all a much better

weekend--we've got colds and flu in our house--and if I don't blog again for

awhile(ya never know), I wish you all happy holidays, merry Christmas, happy new

year, wonderful solstice, good Yule, happy Hunakkah, a great Kwanzza(I hope I

spelled those all right!), a fun Boxing day....and anything else that you

celebrate or comes your way.