oh, the angst
i'm not eating much.
no idea why,
i'm just not.
i just don't feel like eating,
even if i'm hungry.
especially when i'm hungry.
and i hate it,
but i don't know what to do.
i'm worried i'm losing weight at an alarming rate,
but i'm afraid to weigh myself....
i was so glad to finally be in the triple digits,
i don't know what i'll do if it's back
to somewhere in the 90s again.
i'm also worried i'll just waste away or something.
that i'll die from
my organs failing or something.
i'm not trying to starve myself,
i want to gain weight
becuause i know i weigh too little.
but i just don't do anything about it.
maybe that's just as bad.