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Losing You My Biggest Regret

October 18, 2006 12:34 AM EDT

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When she ripped you out from within my arms
I was denied your sweet charms
My smile became a permanent frown
Turning your world upside down

Forbidden to see each other again
Denying you of your best friend
I walked this world a lonely man
Wondering where this hell began

What horrible thing did I do?
To cause the pain of losing you
I understood she cared no more
But to hurt me to my very core?

She said the time to talk had passed
These few minutes with you would be my last
She kicked me out and slammed the door
I could not see you anymore

My world that day was ripped apart
Just like the way she bruised my heart
The cruelest thing that she could do
Was to keep me away from you

Your childhood was robbed from me
Building sandcastles and swimming in the sea
Riding horses and throwing ball
It was so hard to miss it all

I did not see you graduate
I could not advise you on choosing a mate
You became a man and you did marry
Despite the guilt that I still carry

A greater man than I you became
While I still hold my head in shame
I was not there to see you grow
But there is one thing I want you to know

Being a good husband I could not do
Yet, I was a damn good father to you
I know her needs were not always met
But losing you was my biggest regret

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Comments: 50

webster merle Oct 18, 2006, 12:45am EDT

I really liked this one, it was sad and honest. I give it a 10.

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Heather B. Oct 18, 2006, 12:51am EDT

beautiful and very meaningful........... sad too. I give it a "10" too.

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Carol Roach Oct 18, 2006, 1:26am EDT

thank you webster, I just wanted to write a male side of divorce

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Carol Roach Oct 18, 2006, 1:36am EDT

thanks heather, I am glad you liked it

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Lauren R. Oct 18, 2006, 2:00am EDT

Very meaningful, very honest, and pure from the heart

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Lauren R. Oct 18, 2006, 2:03am EDT

I gave it a 10!

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amanda wallin Oct 18, 2006, 2:24am EDT

Great job at using a man's voice in a running dialogue poem. Extremely moving piece that many should read.

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Richard Melendez Oct 18, 2006, 2:55am EDT

Very painful rendition from a man's point of view. Bittersweet and honestly spoken.

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Marinela Kotsina Oct 18, 2006, 3:02am EDT

Beautiful and moving
thank you Carol

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Kathryn E. Oct 18, 2006, 5:17am EDT

Raw and moving. I've made it a Feature in Famous Firsts and Not So Famous Firsts.

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Renee S. Oct 18, 2006, 7:34am EDT

A point of view that we don't often hear...I could feel the pain in his reflection.

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Carol Roach Oct 18, 2006, 8:02am EDT

thank you so much Lauren

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Carol Roach Oct 18, 2006, 8:04am EDT

thank you Amanda, I feel that many times a male view point of divorce is not always written about.

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Carol Roach Oct 18, 2006, 8:06am EDT

thanks Richard, coming from a man I take that as the highest compliment

I wanted to show this man was a lousy husband but did not deserve to lose his son in the process.

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Carol Roach Oct 18, 2006, 8:07am EDT

You are welcome Marinella,

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Carol Roach Oct 18, 2006, 8:10am EDT

thanks Kathryn

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Carol Roach Oct 18, 2006, 8:15am EDT

thank you Renee that was what I had set out to accomplish.

It always pained me how children are sometimes used as a means to hurt the other spouse in a divorce case.

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Paula Booher Oct 18, 2006, 8:44am EDT

Knowing that he felt that, touches my heart. Thank you for sharing yours.

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Carol Roach Oct 18, 2006, 9:00am EDT

thank you Paula

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Shelly W. Oct 18, 2006, 10:00am EDT

This is a wonderfully written article, heartfelt, with raw emotion, well done, Shelly

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Edward Nudelman Oct 18, 2006, 11:12am EDT

Wow Carol, very well done. The insightful transferance was mystifying in this poem of passion, regret, pain, and unmitigated regret.

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Martha Jette, Author/Editor Oct 18, 2006, 11:47am EDT

I think it is good for women to consider the male side of things once in awhile. Well done, Carol!

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gautami tripathy Oct 18, 2006, 2:04pm EDT

I like this!

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Nancy S. Oct 21, 2006, 8:25pm EDT

I am always impressed when a woman does male, or a man does female. It takes a certain kind of detachment. Very good, Carol.

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Pina M. Oct 21, 2006, 9:17pm EDT

Carol, you gave a voice to the male side of the equation in divorce, a voice that all too often we don't hear, or if we are in that process, refuse to hear. Sharing that illuminates the pain men go through in divorce and makes them decidedly human and as equally vulnerable as we are. Lovely and moving as always!

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Virginia M. Oct 22, 2006, 10:53am EDT

Great, Carol! You show so well how it is from a mans' point. My son suffers fron the way his daughters' mom does him. Right is right, and wrong is wrong, reguardless of male/female. Why do children have to suffer, while being used as a pawn?
I hush my mouth now:) 10

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Jim H. Oct 24, 2006, 10:15am EDT

All I can say is wow!! Two Thumbs Up! At first I thought it was about two lovers pulled apart by their parents and then realized it was a father and daughter. Excellent work.

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Carol Roach Oct 27, 2006, 12:45pm EDT

thank you so much Marlena, I am sorry it took so long to answer you but I have been off line for 9 days

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Carol Roach Oct 27, 2006, 12:49pm EDT

thank you so much nancy, being a membership director for a single parent association for years, I did hear the male point of view and many of the stories would make you cry.

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Carol Roach Oct 27, 2006, 12:53pm EDT

thank you so much Pina that was what I was trying to do. I know my current finance was very hurt by the divorce and denied his kids for 4 years until they got old enough to come and see him themselves.

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Carol Roach Oct 27, 2006, 12:55pm EDT

Virginia you are absolutely right and that is why I wrote this poem, why are children used as pawns and revenge, it is just not right.

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Carol Roach Oct 27, 2006, 12:59pm EDT

thank you Jim but it was about a father and a son, but no big deal the message was about fathers being denied their children in a nasty divorce battle.

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Timothy C. Oct 28, 2006, 4:00pm EDT

Unfortunately, I can relate to this.

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Carol Roach Oct 29, 2006, 3:30am EST

oh Timothy that really is unfortunate

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Serina Matteson Oct 29, 2006, 7:10am EST

Excellent, Carol. I don't believe I could ever write anything from a man's perspective and be fair. You did a wonderfully, honest and moving job. Fantastic.

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Carol Roach Oct 29, 2006, 7:38am EST

I can write in both male and female perspectives, I might send in a dialog between a man and woman from my second yet to be published book

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Carolyn K. Oct 29, 2006, 9:03am EST

Wow...very powerful and sad. People should always remember what's in the best interest if the children...regardless of how they feel about their ex. No matter what, the children are hald Mom and half Dad and when you do wrong to the other parent, you are hurting the children. Period.

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Carol Roach Oct 29, 2006, 8:28pm EST

very well said Carolyn

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tuwanda t. Oct 30, 2006, 7:45pm EST

Beautiful

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Carol Roach Oct 31, 2006, 8:07am EST

thanks tuwanda

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Nic P. Nov 2, 2006, 12:24am EST

Very well done Carol. Thank you for this.

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Carol Roach Nov 2, 2006, 5:15am EST

you are welcome Nicole

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David L. Nov 3, 2006, 5:43am EST

Carol -

What a tremendous piece of honesty you have laid out here for us! Thank you for sharing!

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Carol Roach Nov 4, 2006, 12:33am EST

you are welcome David

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Quinn (aka Entwife) Blackburn Nov 9, 2006, 12:10pm EST

Touching, sure to be a comfort to those true gentlemen who have experienced this situation. Well done!

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Wishing You Laughter

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James s F. Nov 9, 2006, 12:39pm EST

It is usually day three at scout camp before some of the damage done to some children of divorce is overcome. As a scoutmaster I began to hate the fight that is kept brewing by supposed adults who use their children as pawns in their spite game. A child has rights, and freedom from hate should be paramount. So often a kid would be brought to the scout troop by a single mother who'd spent eleven years teaching him men were the enemy, then 'prang' with a stroke of a wand we were supposed to be his role models.
Then there would be the fathers who never paid child support as required, but would make sure little Johnny had a brand new sleeping bag, backpack and mess kit for camp. Johnny had to smile and act appreciative but carried that guilt to camp with him. So unfair.
Divorced parents PLEASE get a clue.

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Carol Roach Nov 9, 2006, 3:52pm EST

thank you Quinn

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Carol Roach Nov 9, 2006, 4:41pm EST

James well said, my own finance is suffering from having been denied his children while they were growing up, he paid child support faithfully all the way through. When the children became teenagers they defied their mom's wishes and went to see their dad. the oldest son went to live with his father. I have heard that story so many times, that beyond fair, the children are used as pawns to hurt the other partner, sometimes it is the father denying the x wife access to the kids as well.

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