Live or Die?

Oh....this poem speaks to the despair one feels when depressed. I'm so glad that you never took that final step, and very glad that you are happy now...feeling blessed.

It was a difficult time. But, like most of my problems, I made bad choices. I'm wiser now. But they were hard-learned lessons. Thank you for your comments. And Jan, I'm happy God helped you, too.

We could almost start a 'survivors of suicidal impulses' club here, so many of us have looked down that same suicide barrel, so to speak. But things wouldn't be the same without any of us here... would they? Glad you made it! And you too, Jan!

Thank goodness, Pamela, you are still with us. When I hear of people so depressed they are thinking this, I also think that what they want most in this world is to stop feeling SO terribly that they want to end it all. The trick then becomes how they can STOP feeling so terribly, because they want to live. I'm sure a lot of people relate to this feeling.

yes I am glad you are still with us.

Life can be so hard, and I think so many people think about 'quitting' life. I came to conclusion that THAT is the actual "fight of Faith" - can we keep believing that God is good and has a plan for our life, no matter what has happened to us, around us. How many times have I gritted my teeth and said, "Lord Jeshua, if You don't rescue me, then I'm as good as dead. If I can't lean on Your promises, then I have no reason to live. You counted his belief to Abraham as Righteousness. Lord, I am stubbornly holding You to Your promises and waiting for You to rescue me." And He has slowly, slowly, pulled me out of the dark pit that had swallowed me up. I still have to make the decision, daily, to hold God to His promises and believe that He is going to rescue me.

I have asked Him to heal my soul, my broken heart, to give me back the song and joy that used to always be in my heart, to restore ALL that the enemy has stolen and destroyed. "Weeping may endure for the night, but Joy comes in the morning!"

- Jeanjaz