" _the hallucination being the recursus returned proclamation, the already considering, the constraint, dancing - having beat, himself tagged along, streamed, daydream and it (fear and the variation)...
... some timeshift there it be the Will Evans.aESS* of uber-morosoph some dead like the producer and the disintegration {loop.aESS} nobody manufactured... but initially that the encoding [ say ] machine encoded, by mutation, the him drop out in moda of it supercedes it if for means of simulation, repeat. End"
~ Will Evans. Hallucination's Remix.
*aESS: An aEpistrofic Self Similarities: Discussed below.
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Crystal Dreams
Begin Transmission:
.aESS, I, I', I'', I''', &cet,
become
[me]
Caught in this haven
the elements deny my(self),
disorder ordered
remaining desingularalities
{imply controlled}
destination from the
crystal center
blazing
inside the out,out,
itself signing signifiying
outpost of the known memories
loci, locations
factions,
self.
Torn
time's streaming me
and the spaces it has.
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I dreamed a lifetime,
||at hyperspeed [of kaleidoscopic images of all previous instantiations.] ||
I would start at the End and work fractally, back to the center, to the origin. Slow down to real-time processing. I am a leaf blowing on the winds of time, now, held together with love. And synthetic Gatorade J
Conclusion: The weight of the eternity of a mortal perception must needs crush us. In the end,I would like to seek for eternal beauty of a divine consciousness as if we don't have to offer a vision of the future to our children, only a transmission from the past. I still think that the fractal nature of a divine preSim or the reinstantiation of any old historic world need not be the death of divine, but the medium is importantant. The will not be able to read our current technologies. Those are already dead. The transmission must be in an eternal medium, but one beyond techne, and beyond biology.
The new race must be incribed with their history as machine coded, ready made to receive their soul. This, in the end, is key for the furture to happen.
The 2,000th reinstantiation of Minerva's Owl flies in the twilight of my soul's reflection, shimmering metalic gold; I always thought that my innocent reflexion's psion death would be something too solemn and [of] interest, but really it happened as a prosaic event, and as people don't note the death of somebody at once and must get accustomed to the "dead" body of relatives or friends, so I don't get accustomed to my own personality-construct at once. Post-mortality is like that.
Personally [again reflected images of dreams]. The great tides shifting, I feel it beneath the ripples in the quantum timetides that act as my heartbeat. I fully understood that I am still cybernetic, and drawn on strings. I got the possibility to speak clearly, to listen attentively to each person. Our race doesn't even understand it's past, looks at history encoded in dna as a quaint annoyance - it is not the matter of how we understand the encoding, and for many of us of our millennium death itself remains as the door to another order. I would like to follow my own earth-bound way - to quit this lightening dance with my own mind and meat, but this may not be possible given current "limitations" of my meta-vector space,
or, in more precise words (implied basic understanding of chaos theory related to multiples selvings)
to create the graphic tracing of my own non-being; a language of my previous aEpistrofic selves; to try look at the human world when I follow my own way as I stream along with crystal wings. I contemplate selves a dynamical soul-system given by an area-preserving map on an n-dimensional phase plane of existence and consider a one-dimensional line of initial conditions set in meta-vector space. I had considered recording the number of "known" iterates it takes a trajectory to escape from a bounded region of the plane as a function along the line of initial conditions, forming an "escape-time plot of selves." There has arisen the existence of regular repeated sequences, called "aEpistrofes," which occur at all levels of resolution within the escape-time plot of selves (fractal). (The word derived from "epistrofe" comes from ancient rhetoric and means "in verse, a repeated ending following a variable beginning.") The aEpistrofic selvings has given the escaping-time plot a certain self similarities, called "aEpistrofic" self similarity selves, which need not imply either strict or asymptotic self similarities. This requires further research on my part.
End transmission||
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Okay. I'm going to take this one section at a time--I have to, mainly because of Evan's IV's recursive time loops that roller coaster in the expected orbits but then spiral suddenly and transform into straight lines outside the frame of this page, that " elsewhere vector" this transmission was sent from being unreachable except through, as Alec Baldwin explained about his approach to acting and scenecraft, careful re-constitution of the constituent parts: "if I don't break it up into little bits, not only is there no discovery, nobody's going to see a unity at the end, the entire picture." Yes.
So what if Will Evans not only sickened and approached death in the past week, he also (access consciousness wilfully fighting back the distress of a sleep-deprived phenomenology of limbic stamped trauma imprints through sheer metaphysical stubbornness; think Rene Descartes in Discourse On Method and the howling ovens and the voices of common crowds in his head to blot out and the whisper of the cogito from futurity embedded in a single neural array) well,
time-travelled.
Not corporeally, por supuesto. As literally and metaphorically a "mental leap,"
our Will traveled in time.
Yes, it adds up. In the imaginal world he went back and forth so many times across what the Chaos Magicians call CHORONZON (Aleister Crowley's prescient term for the abyss-gulf, or barzakh, between Self and no self, with no time, only the imaginary space between chaos and a brain simulated "order") that he took himself past his own instantiated moment of death to a superpositioned elsewhere: A place to see the world from.
Would he not be saying exactly what is said about iteration and disintegration?
I think so.
Will's twists and bends no doubt make the movie PRIMER's plot appear as simplistic as the tale of the three little pigs.
But the wolf at the door didn't eat Will.
Chronos only devours the hypnotized children.
The ones that wear the T-shirt of the Shadow on the front
and the logo, Where's The Cave? on the back.
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CRYSTAL DREAMS the middle section, that is to say, the poem, is self-referential as it redonstitutes itself from total deconstruction: At this level of postmodern discourse one would have to even venture to call it disintegration in the sense of annihilation of the construct of identity, to make a new beginning. In order to understand Will's decision to annihilate his old postmodern self-paradigm at the same moment that he realized it had caused a serious mind-body disturbance that led to self-hospitalization, we need to refer to Belgian Nobel Prize winner key argument of "the bifurcation point" in chaos/order theory applied to the human organism.
I quote: "The Moment of Truth:In chaos/order theory, there is a term called the "bifurcation point." This is the point of "overwhelm"; the point or moment of truth in which the body either breaks down, (i.e. manifests disease), or moves towards better health; elevating the body to a higher level of order. ~ David Wagner, applying Prigogean energy dissipative structure transformation theory to humans.
So when our Will 'time travelled' as his body collapsed at the "bifurcation point', his consciousness freed of its set points moved to access the temporal zones of futurity he had been obsessed by ever since he signed onto the pre-Simulationist project moving away from the past (in a sense, everything "post") and toward whatever followed the "pre", since his deep phenomenology had been conducting thought experiments to that end for months ('dry runs' as it were.)
We therefore go from the chaos state he'd found himself in after massive sleep deprivation:dehydration through over-caffeination;and other factors I cannot discuss because he has not found them necessary to post in articles to this point, but that involve prescribed pharmaceuticals he need take but did not take---this set of energy patterns he terms "I, I, I, I"--to an ordered state, that still remains unstable--"disorder ordered/remaining desingularalities/{imply controlled}/
destination from the/crystal center/blazing/inside the out,out,/itself signing signifiying/outpost of the known memories."
Here he reconstituted 'consciousness' even as it expanded to access the elsewhere of "2.11*10^2.9200 AD. SUT."
Final section tomorrow.
Will's post-psychotic episode/chrono-moment Explanation (cf. J.G. Ballard's classic sexdeathviolence psychedelic re-editing of temporal reality fiction, THE ATROCITY EXHIBITION (1969) and then see the film of the same titel (2000), Ballard is still ahead of his time).
To wit: Will shows us that he went "elsewhere." He tells us this was a chaos-ordered event, with a footprint that went into only one of an infinite set of permutable alternative universes (quantum objective reduction in the mind reduces the Shroedinger choice for us, this is indeed an epistrofic "consciousness" regular process and event, though Will took it to extraordinary lengths of the striking amplitude at the high end of synapse just before brain 'storm' to go to the trajectory of the tesseract). I grok Will's use of epistrofe here and its variants, seems apt for our pre-Simulationist Movement as a critical discourse term, though he will have to explain further all its implications with the possibilities of other selves once the pathway through accessed time is 'time-bound' in Korbyski's sense and framed as a unique set of instantiations according to current superpositioning theory of quantum possibiilities.
The only inconclusive item that must be dismissed outright (though I share his deep intuitions) is Will's mystical insight into a divine consciousness (termed as such). We pre-Simulationists embrace a transcendental model but refuse to use the "divine" approximation as a personal or public construct though all of us consider ourselves spiritual and at least one co-founder is steadfastly religious. We just don't want to be mis-interpreted as collectively embracing one creed, religion or sect and inflecting our aesthetic and philosophical views of humanity and human representation through that one particular set of beliefs. However, the fact that Will sought this vision of the One after such a tranformative experience that corresponds to the Prigoginean "bifurcation point" does cause one to stop, reflect, and take stock on one's own views of the cosmos.
Do I believe Will really time travelled? Since his body can't go faster than the speed of light, this means his 'consciousness' either had to, or that "consciousness' itself is somehow (though not panpsychically) an essential feature of the universe, a "fifth dimension", as it were.
We pre-Simulationists are still grappling with this "hard problem" of how human subjectivity arises out of an objective reality, and simulates itself.
Will's experience certainly adds fuel to the fire.
Now buddy rest, recover, retrace your steps back from the distant future through reverse concatenation, and report back to us!
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