Standing on a bridge

"The whole world is a very narrow bridge and the main thing is not to have fear at all"

                                                                              -Rabbi Nachman from Brashlav

Standing on a bridge at night

should i let out ,

that scream

that struggles to come out?

or should i go back

to the place where i started from?

 I don't know the place anymore

on the other side of the bridge

and the rule is

you can not go back

only foreward

cross the bridge

or stay in the place

where i stand

looking into the dark

water

seeking to spot

the light that comes

from fish swimming

the frog jumps

as a comical relief.

be serious ,i say

hey

this is  a deep place

but surely it is better

to laugh at the frog jumping 

than to consider jumping

from the bridge..

i stay at the place

where i have been

for years

crossing the bridge

looking down

feeling the fright

of a decision

not taken ,

living a life

spent

walking across a suspended bridge,

taking comfort in the bridge

being there

holding me.