I am soooo old!

You know, it's funny, I have a hard time thinking of many people as "old" anymore. After two marriages and four kids... I guess that kind of changed my perspective on things!

I feel young when I go out, especially with a female friend, and guys still look my way... I feel young when I go outside and play volleyball with the kids... I feel young around most of my friends, who are usually twenty or so years older than me... but they don't seem old to me! lol They help keep me feeling young, and hopefully I do the same for them.

On the other hand... oh, here come the tears (but proud ones!) ... I feel old knowing that my oldest son will be attending middle school for the last time tomorrow... that he is on his journey to those crazy happy/sad/angry/exciting years of becoming an adult. I felt old last night watching my third child "graduate" from elementary school, tears streaming down my face and my other children looking at me like I was nuts and they were embarrassed to be there with me crying! I feel old when I see my beautiful daughter growing, developing an attitude and experimenting with her styles... she will officially become a teenager in October. I also feel old when I look at my youngest son, still running around as a child, but wanting to dress in slacks and a tie... even to go out to play. I feel old, especially, knowing that he is it... my "baby"... that I will not have any more babies of my own to hold... that soon, the kisses won't make all the scrapes and nightmares go away. I feel old, seing his beautiful face look more and more like his father, with every passing day.

Ok... those were the emotional reasons I feel old... I also feel old when my ten year old tells me not to wear my lipstick so dark. I feel old when my kids tease me about my music and about having friends online. I feel old when I buy my daughter an outfit and she tells me how "dorky" and out of style it is... when I really thought it was neat! lol

But, with all of the things I mentioned that make me feel old... every single one of them gives me a sense of pride. I know that, thus far, I have done a good job, and just pray that I can continue doing so!

Sooo... now that I've shared this emotional review... all you gals need to come over so we can go out and flirt with some guys!!!!!! Anyone up for babysitting?