FINDING PEACE

Finding peace--three years ago I thought that it would forever be impossible.

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 I did not imagine there could be such hate in me.

I was raging. I was afraid. I was angry.

 I couldn't sleep without nightmares of him.

I slept with a gun under my pillow.

I found his letters left on my windshield at work. My stomach churned constantly.

 I saw the doctor.

She thought tranquilizers might help.

He called my cellphone constantly until I changed my number.

My friends told me where he was, so I wouldn't meet him in town. T

hey found a breast lump, I blame him, I had the surgery.

It took two years. He's gone out of my life.

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Finding peace--this time my husband came into my life 2 months after the divorce was final.

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He did not want to intrude on my life.

He was careful to tread lightly on my wounded self.

He worked to heal me.

He gave himself to me with no strings.

He found my laughter.

He gently picked up the pieces.

Anger, fright, rage are gone.

It took one year. He's forever in my life.