check list

10:29 a.am.

Check list: dog been walked

                dog got fed

                rabbits been fed

               children dressed , fed

               gone to school and kindergarden

               snacks and drinks for school been

              packed.

              need to talk to someone

             met;

            a nice lederly woman

            walking her pug

           list of things not done:

            floor not swept

           bed not made

          sheet not changed

         lunch not prepared

          love not found

         job not got

         cold not gone

         not gotten a hug!

Memories :

yesterday at the children's concert

for Mozart's 250 th birthday

had a fight with a man

who yelled at my 7 year old son

for playing with chewing gum.

I had  called him a german pig

it sounds so much better

in German

("Deutche Schwein")

it felt strange to hurt

a stranger's feelings

so much.

I could tell by the way

his eyes looked

the ship in his grey eyes

had sunk..

hurray! i felt

I got him after he got me.

I had felt so bad

after he came close

to raphael's ear

and yelled at him

"what a pig you are!

(was für schweinerie!")

I have never seen such

behaviour! with a chewing gum!

How disgusting!"

I had placed  my arms around

my children,

embracing them close

to my heart,

(it felt like a scene from

a  holocaust film)

we were rounded

for the train

and before getting on

I had the courage to tell  the gustapo police

off.

"Fascist german pig

you don't like people

who speak English,

do you? "

I had spoken a bit too loudly

as he turned away

i could tell

i got him.

he looked real  hurt

as he walked off

with his 14 year old Luralei

and her long blond hair

why should i care?

but this morning

the victory does not feel

so good

anymore

and i don't feel like hearing

Mozart

either.