Psalm 40

Psalm 40

I waited patiently for the Lord and he inclined unto me and heard my cry.

He screamed at me for the longest time. My ears were filled with obscenities. I cried within and tears streamed down but no words came out.

He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.

A faithful wife, loving him throughout a long marriage and he continually strayed away with other women, even friends. Bu this time recovery came in loneliness, even going through the motions of prayer and praise to God, until finally my feet were set on God's rock.

And He hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God. Many shall see it and fear, and shall trust in the Lord.

O God, how blessed am I to be able to praise God through the music. It has carried me through death, divorce, abuse, wayward children, so many sorrows. Those song, written by others with trials like all of us, set them to music, and I can sing and play them to others. I know You, O Lord, gave me the gift and I must share it!

Many, O Lord my God, are the wonderful works which thou hast done; and Thy thoughts which are to us--words: they cannot be reckoned up in order unto thee: if I would declare and speak of then, they are more than can be numbered.

It takes a lot of sunsets, a lot of hugs, a lot of mountain views, a lot of friends, a lot of Bach fugues, a lot of walking barefoot in the sand to heal broken hearts. I thank God for all these healing works sent to me.

Withhold not thy tender mercies from me, O Loard: Let thy loving kindness and thy truth continually preserve me.

Even though there came physical illness, the crushing of life's expectant plans, long periods of vast wasteland, I am still blessed. Out of everything, You have helped me find a path. Your love has guided me back--a stronger spirit each time.

For innumerable evils have encompassed me about: mine iniquities have taken hold upon me, so that I am not able to look up; they are more than the hairs of mine head: therefore my heart faileth me.

Living with him. I found godlessness in me too, laughing at obscenities, ignoring Your calling to me. His vices were amusing--cute. His stories of mean-spirit were strangely fascinating. Could anyone really do these things? My own heart was turning to stone.

Let them be ashamed and confounded together that seek after my soul to destroy it; let them be driven backward and put to shame that wish me evil.

He even said---She'll pay for this. I'll get even. Fear was within me for two years. Friends surrounded me to protect me. A weapon was by my side at night. My heart was filled with terror. Illness beset me.

But I am poor and needy; yet the Lord thinketh upon me, thou art my help and my deliverer; make no tarrying, O my God.

Yes, the Lord does think on me and I think upon the Lord in my neediness. In my new mate You send me love and kindness as I have never known in one. I have had loving parents, loving children and precious grandchildren. You send into my life countless angels in my loving friends, too numerous to count. There are no strings attached here.

Unconditional Love

………… Grace