http://ganceypants.gather.com Recent Articles on Gather by Heatherrrr Eloise en-us Copyright Gather Inc 2009 Tue, 29 Dec 2009 00:57:14 GMT 2009-12-29T00:57:14Z en-us Copyright Gather Inc 2009 http://www.gather.com/images/header/logo_gather.gif http://www.gather.com/ http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977168919 the cover of the book glows in the dark holding all the words i wrote the words i wrote for you my phone fills the room with sound an alert that i cannot acknowledge ignoring the words you wrote . . . Tue, 06 Nov 2007 11:01:43 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977168919 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-11-06T11:01:43Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977144015  (i took the line"this weight is a gift" from something i wrote earlier, but i applied it to something differently.)   THIS WEIGHT IS A GIFT. THAT IS WHAT I HEARD. HE SUNG BEAUTIFULLY . . . Thu, 11 Oct 2007 08:00:03 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977144015 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-10-11T08:00:03Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977136896     wake up.     shake it off.     rise.     repeat.     build the wall.     put on the face.     . . . Thu, 04 Oct 2007 06:36:54 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977136896 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-10-04T06:36:54Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977097446          Each syllable slips from my grip,          I want to spill my soul and free this rage,         . . . Sun, 26 Aug 2007 08:21:21 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977097446 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-08-26T08:21:21Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977071828  (i closed my eyes and decided to write out all my frustration, and this is what i came up with.) Words tangle in my mind and I let it all go. I tell you this is nothing and I believe this is now . . . Tue, 31 Jul 2007 09:20:06 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977071828 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-07-31T09:20:06Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977045407 This feeling stays with her all day. Like a rock in her shoe, she will experience the sting until the rock is removed. Knowing this, she does not remove the rock. All the situations she, somehow, found . . . Mon, 02 Jul 2007 11:42:28 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977045407 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-07-02T11:42:28Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977035252 blinding glow from the screen, your voice whispers through the speakers. though all i can see is a wasteland, that voice can only be yours. my eyes fight the urge to blink. what if i miss that moment? . . . Thu, 21 Jun 2007 09:50:22 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977035252 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-06-21T09:50:22Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977031494   When all the right words feel wrong, what do I say? When I have so many thoughts crashing around in my head, what do I write? My mouth clenches up. I lost every word hiding behind my teeth ready . . . Sun, 17 Jun 2007 00:18:43 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977031494 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-06-17T00:18:43Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977022586 For the past year, I have had the same couple of dreams. I dream about my boss telling me that my "speed with service" is terrible. Or I have that dream about my history teacher from ninth grade . . . Thu, 07 Jun 2007 07:32:49 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977022586 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-06-07T07:32:49Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977017057 true story of my own "boy meets girl"   Boy meets Girl. Girl dislikes Boy tremendously. Boy tries desperately to impress Girl. Girl slowly is intrigued by Boy. Boy treats Girl like a . . . Fri, 01 Jun 2007 13:07:40 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977017057 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-06-01T13:07:40Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977014178               Keeping her secrets glued to the roof of her mouth,             She is determined . . . Wed, 30 May 2007 08:01:41 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977014178 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-05-30T08:01:41Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977013988             Soda pop and water             Laughter creeping out of a locked door             . . . Wed, 30 May 2007 03:02:00 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977013988 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-05-30T03:02:00Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977009846             Against the artificial wood wall,             his fingernails dig into her delicate . . . Sat, 26 May 2007 09:34:08 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977009846 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-05-26T09:34:08Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977005243 on the dirty floor, amongst the piles of greasy wrappers, the stained articles of clothing, and all thoses items i swore i needed, lays the only thing i ever really needed. crippled and defeated, he is . . . Mon, 21 May 2007 07:54:54 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474977005243 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-05-21T07:54:54Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976997789 Awake in the infinite cold I cannot steady my thoughts My dreams feel so far Rising up towards the sun Falling back down to the ground A dance of devastation A song of failure I cannot steady my thoughts . . . Fri, 11 May 2007 08:18:14 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976997789 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-05-11T08:18:14Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976991916   heart cramps, forgetting how to accurately beat. stomach acids tidel wave, bulging up into a dry throat. eyes lose focus, the scenery is indistinguishable. toxic routine, plot had already . . . Sun, 06 May 2007 11:20:10 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976991916 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-05-06T11:20:10Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976974037 Behind that white door With the simple blue trim There is an emergency You both keep hidden.   There is the mother Who is lost inside her own misery. She is motionless in bed, Languishing over milk . . . Thu, 03 May 2007 00:49:44 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976974037 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-05-03T00:49:44Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976973408 sometimes i see the halo, the one i drew above your head. sometimes that glows is still there, the light that first caugh my eye. sometimes these memories haunt, the ones that steal my slumber. sometimes . . . Wed, 02 May 2007 11:50:24 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976973408 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-05-02T11:50:24Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976953096 Each keystroke tells my story. Fingers dancing across this board, Word by word I let go of this weight. Are these burdens then a gift? The pounds placed on my shoulders, Shape shift, fall onto these pages, . . . Mon, 23 Apr 2007 08:25:35 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976953096 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-04-23T08:25:35Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976963686 i once spoke with an air of intelligence. it was like i knew something about the world. i once laughed with a whole heart. it was like my heart was light and gay. i once saw from all angles. it was like . . . Fri, 20 Apr 2007 08:21:58 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976963686 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-04-20T08:21:58Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976960907 something just swells up inside of me. all i taste, hear, and see is rage. i start to feel my head throb. nothing is in it's place. the room is shaking, melting in front of me. this happens so often . . . Tue, 17 Apr 2007 09:13:15 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976960907 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-04-17T09:13:15Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976949760   These words grow stale in my mouth, I keep flipping them around for a better meaning. The clock laughs as time slithers on, Each click I hear winds me up. The radio plays the same three songs on . . . Wed, 04 Apr 2007 08:07:05 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976949760 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-04-04T08:07:05Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976947319 this speech has been over rehearsed, so frequently and with such a fever, these words are scrawled across my eyelids, haunting me when i drift into disturbed slumber. tossing and turning, sleep is futile. . . . Sun, 01 Apr 2007 09:53:08 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976947319 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-04-01T09:53:08Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976943923    My mother loves to tell any curious pair of ears about my girlhood dream of being a ballerina. I would dress myself in colorfully creative dresses that my grammy made me, and I only would . . . Wed, 28 Mar 2007 10:50:02 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976943923 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-03-28T10:50:02Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976942890      I know that I have created my own problems. I accept that fact. I know that every ounce of pain I feel is self-created. I accept that fact also. I am learning how to deal with the fact . . . Tue, 27 Mar 2007 06:46:05 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976942890 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-03-27T06:46:05Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976942851 we saw each other everyday. we smiled for no reason. we laughed so hard we would almost cry. we made everything into a little inside joke. we made each other happy when all was dark. it is hard to see . . . Tue, 27 Mar 2007 05:20:50 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976942851 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-03-27T05:20:50Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976941939 all of my days blur. the nights strech on. raw, overworked hands, i once used them to spread love. silence has become me. the world is black and white. i once was painted in pastels. a bright open face, . . . Mon, 26 Mar 2007 06:59:30 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976941939 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-03-26T06:59:30Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976940325 stiff back, stiff neck, stiff heart. i walk in those doors, guilty. eyes to the floor, i cannot look. the image of your face could bring me to tears. time dissolves the truth i once held, working this . . . Sat, 24 Mar 2007 10:47:09 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976940325 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-03-24T10:47:09Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976938493     Last night was beyond words. I had not felt so alive since I lived in a different area code. I knew it was a rocky foundation but I tried to push all the negativity out. I thought I . . . Thu, 22 Mar 2007 10:47:11 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976938493 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-03-22T10:47:11Z http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976936461 i wanted to say something important, block. but all that came out was confusion. block. i feel the words trapped in my throat, block. but you turned your head. blacking out the friction, i am left wordless . . . Tue, 20 Mar 2007 10:15:08 GMT http://www.gather.com/viewArticle.action?articleId=281474976936461 Heatherrrr Eloise 2007-03-20T10:15:08Z